Life

I have lived this far in a comfort zone of caring for others before myself. i turned pages day by day, but to day i pick up the book again but i have seem to have lost my place in this book called life. how do i manage to read and live this life thus far and have not even reach a mer climax. am i going in bout it all the worng way or in this catorgory am i late bloomer or have i succeed it but with no rush? i have yet to find answer....but will i ever get one?????