Childhood

Waking up to my grandmothers buttery grits on the stove,
Makes the image of walking along the beach with
Sand through my toes.

Childhood imageries are the best. Its like a book that
Gets no rest. Spring cleaning!
Wake up to the smell of pine sol all windows are
Open and a cool breeze is a blowin’.
Old school music or church hymns playing like you were at
The block party as of yesterday.

Hop scotch, jacks and double dutch,
Ice cream truck and duck duck.
Sticky hands and loose change!
Fire hydrant blasting and children clothes
Are soaking.

School again, new friends, new teachers
And new supplies, Boxes of tissue
and wide rule paper.
Cotton candy, funnel cakes, fairs wheel, many tickets.
Turkey legs and corny dogs.
Tummy aches night falls.
Goons and goblins, witches and super heroes
Cheerleaders and clowns.
bags of treats pranks of tricks. Candy apple
and caldron punch.

List of wants, new start on good deeds.
I do it, it’s no problem. Decorations and a tree inside the house.
Family with gifts because thanks has past,
No coal but candy canes. Some say
ST. Nick or Jolly ol’ fella all I know
A fat red fella. Sleep early no pepper in my eyes.
White morning and a clear sky.

True Love

THE WORDS I WANT TO SAY AND THE ACTIONS I WANT TO.TAKE PLACE.........



THE CONSTAPLATING IN MY HEAD SHOULD I FOLLOW THROUGH OR TURN AWAY.....



THE THOUGHTS OF NOT BECOMEING ONE WITH YOU IS A BARREN I CANNOT TAKE.....



THE THOUGHT OF LOSING YOU IS SOMETHING THAT WILL NOT HAPPEND TODAY.....



IM SCARED AND SO ARE MY WORDS, FOR THEY HAVE PLAYED OUT THE ROLE OVA N OVA AGAIN. BUT IT ALL COMES OUT TO IF I WILL WIN.....



I CANT FIND THE WORDS TO SAY SO PLEASE TAKE MY HAND AND GUIDE ME, FOR I WISH TO INDULGE IN YOU IN EVERY PLEASIN WAY.....



FANTACY N ROLE PLAY WHATEVA I WILL DO IT YOUR WAY. JUS HELP ME, GUIDE ME TO WAT U WANT.....



I GET DOWN ON MY KNEES AND PRAY TO THE HEVANS.....



MY LOVE JUS KNOW THAT MY SILENCE IS THE WORLD AND WITH IT I TELL YOU ALL. BUT WHEN I WISHPER MY WORDS IN MY ARMS YOU WILL FALL.....

Relations

Lately I've noticed a lot about relationships. Not jus boyfriend/ girlfriend type stuff but just how people react towards each other in general. A lot of this has come from my life, my family, and my friends. So I'm going to get the main point out right now... BE HONEST. Not just with other people but with yourself too. Too many people lie to the people they care for and themselves, thus placing themselves in this "game". Now don't get it confused life is a game, chess to be exact, but if your "grown" then you shouldn't have time for games. It would just make life a whole lot easier if we just accepted most of life for what it is instead of lying to ourselves or others out of a fear of growing up. And sometimes growing means that you have to let go of someone or a certain part of yourself so that you can fulfill whatever plan God has for you. Trust me its hard, and I'm currently going through it myself. But taking the easy way out you never grow. I was reading the other week and came across a quote that inspired me to do whatever I had to do to keep moving forward and it read, " But the truth is, you let life push you into submission. Deep down you were terrified of taking risks. You really wanted to win, but the fear of losing was greater than the excitement of winning. Deep inside, you and only you will know you didn't go for it. You chose to play it safe." In my mind avoiding the inevitable is playing it safe, making excuses, or lying; it all is equivalent. What I'm basically trying to say is attack life head first, in the end you will learn from it because lying, making excuses, or beating around the bush will only prolong the issue and make life harder...